Tired of it all..

What the fuck is going on? I have been asking this question way too often these day.

It is that fucking time of the year when all I am doing is work and all I am complaining about is work! It’s been busy but for all the wrong reasons. Getting dumped under the work that you don’t like or which is not in your so called KRA is usual. But getting dumped under an utterly bureaucratic system with all the more bureaucratic human beings is just horrible.

Just because you are the fucking Odd girl out – you gotta take the heat. It’s no one’s responsibility so its yours baby. Don’t you know that rule.

Become like them or stay out of it. Sadly both options are out of question for me.

I am tired. Tired of doing work which is not mine, Tired of coordinating with bunch of fuck-all idiots who are irresponsible, Tired of being the odd girl out, Tired of being the one who cares, Tired of taking a blow on my conscious all day, Tired of not being able to spend any ME time whatsoever, Tired of not getting 10 minutes to think about future or my dreams, Tired of being the Responsible one, Tired of sacrificing my schedule – full of different flavours, Tired of doing more work but yet getting no appreciation, Tired of suffering under the work done is more than how much I get paid scenario, Tired of having bosses who care but don’t do anything to change the situation, Tired of being dependent on bunch of nodding heads, Tired of letting go of my levy to do what I want in a day, Tired of not being able to take an off from work and just fucking read a good book all day.

I am tired. God knows about the toll my married life might be taking because of all this. Uggghhhh, I am just tired of disappointing myself and coming to a place where I ask myself – What the fuck is going on?

The only good thing about being freakishly occupied is forgetting about the other things that hurt. May be for time-being, but it helps.

I am so so done. So done.

Mr. McDreamy…Dreaming along!

You are all I need , to be free.

You are my life time guarantee.

Coz i know i think of you when i am down and feelin blue

You know the days go by, they never end

It’s like they never end until tomorrow

Coz you are my lifetime guarantee

You are all I need, to be free.

Meredith sees him in the corridor of hospital , exhales a sigh which meant ‘shit I want him so badly’, feels helpless and calls him Mr. McDreamy

A grey eyed guy with crop beard , little sad face, average-ish physique , stands-out in 50 people , intelligent, humorous, lightening gaze which looks within and walks like a college guy who has no worry whatsoever. That’s Mr. McDreamy (Patrick Dempsey ) from Grey’s Anatomy.

Now you might think whats so special about him that he landed up as a topic of the blog? Well Nothing and Everything. He is perfectly imperfect. Just the way I like it.

He would wear this Orange Tee and sit at the bar enjoying his drink alone. Not talking much just thinking to himself. And a girl comes n sits beside him. He looks at her, and finds her cute says “wow she has a nice smile”. Starts talking, about the weather and work and falls for her. Eventually she falls in his arms perfectly.

That’s all how it started and went on..

Patrick-DempseyAfter a long thought,I realized I like the idea of him from the core.

A soft spoken guy making the first move, making you feel the pain in your guts because of the way he treats you, who talks endlessly about past future work dreams friends family just anything, includes you in his life in a moment, a guy who doesn’t think too much of the consequences, who takes a step first just realizing the connection two people share, who is not bound by stupid conversations of society, morality, who accepts you the way you are, who cares for your family the way you do, who puts himself second when you are around, who gets angry very quickly because he cant stand the mediocrity, who guides you in your work, who compels you to go forward and try new things, who kicks you in your butt if you dont perform, who teaches you things which you need support in, who takes you as a partner, listens to your suggestions, shares his worries and problems with you, who takes your support whenever necessary, who fulfills his responsibilities well, who doesnt just doesnt let you pay đŸ˜‰ who takes you as his property at the same time gives you your space, who doesnt expect too much, who cant see you with any other guy, who doesn’t like public display of affection, who would go any heights to help you in trouble, who touches you and fills you up with love and care, whose intimacy is not bound by physical attraction but by the commitment, sometimes you will find him extremely cold hearted, sometimes you will find him stubborn and extremely egoistic, but when you think straight you will understand he is just keeping it real, a guy who will fight with you, make you angry deeply, who will neglect you, who will not talk to you for days , not say I love you for days together but will not move from his commitment an inch, who makes you fall for him everyday some more, beside him you feel completeYou feel completely loved.

Patrick-Dempsey-Male-Celebrity-WallpaperMr. McDreamy is like a sunshine who would brighten up your life and a moonlight who would fill your life with stars and romance. This is one character on TV which i lose my sleep and hunger over. I clearly know this craziness is completely crazy but seriously there is no control over some things in life or rather you dont want to have control over some things in life.

Every-time I watched him on screen, I would melt down with the idea of having a guy like that in life..but never found a face matching that character.

Until I found HIM. I just did. Like from no where, he just landed in front of me. Call it a Destiny, call it a Coincidence, call it a Serendipity. I just found him.

Its been some time, I hope he still remembers that he is still my “Mr. McDreamy”..