Letter to my husband..5 years on..

On 15th August 2015, Me and My husband ‘Rishi’ celebrated our 5th Marriage Anniversary. I had always thought of writing something which communicates some of my feelings for him. But always failed to write even a word about him. On the occasion of our 5th Anniversary I decided to write a small piece as a token of love.

I took some time to display this piece on my blog as I wanted to savour it alone for a while but today I felt the need to publish this piece. Not really for people to see, but to sort of making him a part of my blogging world. To be able to have said that, you belong here too..

Here’s my letter to my husband.. which is sort of a re-iteration of what I feel about him as days goes by!!


It’s been 5 years to our marriage. 10 years we know each other. 5 years we live together. 10 years to have practically walked every step together. It seems like a dream. These numbers dance in front of my eyes but don’t sink in. It looks like it was day before when we fell in love and yesterday when we got married.

You know I realize the fact that this is the first piece I am writing about you and our relationship. It is exciting at the same time a bit sad as I wrote about my emotions, my friends, people on the road, my dreams etc etc but never about you or about us. There are two reasons for it. One that somewhere deep within I didn’t want to be called as a married woman in my blog world; especially someone who is married for 5 years. And second, whenever I started writing about you, I thought I will never be able to sum up what Rishi is and our relationship is in one blog or one novel for that matter. I still don’t think I will be able to.

Last few months have made me realize few things about us, about you. I realized that you are the anchor holding us together. My stubbornness, my dominance, my spontaneity, my specifications, my urge for perfection whether it be care, love or any work… Good or bad… you just balance it with being the way you are. You become a kid, you become a father, you become a brat, you become an ass or you become a grown up responsible guy…You do everything to make me happy and keep us going.

You said the other day, that ‘Manu I make this relationship go on for us. I disagreed with it and I made fun of you.’ But today I will accept that it’s true. It has always been like that. To the world who lives with us it may be seen that I drive the relationship. But actually you drive it. Your composed and balanced nature drives the relationship on a daily basis. You have always been telling me that I am at the core or I have been at the center of your life. Not your family, not your work, not your freedom. It’s always been me.

But Something I never noticed along the years is actually you too are at the center of my life. Many times I come across as a very self-sufficient, individualistic and cold who doesn’t always need a hand in hand. But it’s a lie, it’s only the mask I have learned to wear over the years. The truth is that my hand is incomplete without your hand in it.  My morning, afternoon, evening, night everything revolves around you, your needs, your worry and your presence.

I know last one year was tough and it tested everything we had. But I’m glad we helped each other stand strong. I’m glad we had such acquaintances and parents who helped us to stand connected. That’s when I understood that my dreams or my writing or me as a person has no individual significance anymore. If you are not around, If you are not in my life…any of those things will not survive even a day.

We are like H20.. I am hydrogen and you are oxygen. I bring fire, you bring water. I bring responsibility, you bring care-freeness. I bring care, you bring love. I bring spontaneity, you bring stability. I bring attachment, you bring commitment. It’s just bloody how it should be!

Maybe now after spending so many years together I understand lot more about marriage. I was always clear about what I am for you. But now I actually understood what you mean to me.Now I realize the connection that we have and what you mean to me in my life. Few days ago I was thinking about us, I found that moment where I felt…”Yes this is the biggest achievement of my life. And this is it.” I never thought forever is a reality, but now with you I want to make that a reality.

So, thank you for being there with me all along. As a friend, as a best friend, as a lover, as a parent and as a husband. Along with my parents, you gave me the life I have today. And it’s beautiful. Thank you for doing the extraordinary honour of marrying me. Thanks for believing in us no matter how difficult a woman I am to live with.

I promise to be the support you need, the ear you need and the arms you need. I promise to be there always, being only yours. I love you. Happy 5th Anniversary, it still hasn’t sunk in though 😉

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2 comments

  1. Mrunamayee, I am extremely happy..! Authentic, heart to heart, true commitment and appreciation….I will say..Rishi is lucky to have you… You are blessed to have him in life… and we are proud & fortunate…
    With Love, From Baba & Aai

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